Went to see few doctors to re-assure what will be next. First, Dato Dr.Siva from UM Specialist. Very soft spoken fellow, and listened to me carefully. By the way I was confused with the UM Specialist and PPUM as I thought there from the same building area. (UM Specialist is in the University Malaya anyway, behind the PJ guard entrance).
He can't give any answer at that point of time, and asked me to come over a day after. Meanwhile in the evening, I have set to meet up with another Dr. in PCMC, Dato Dr Aziz Yahya. Another well known specialist, in this field. Explained to him the chronology, and based on the report, he did mentioned its not going to be an easy task. But we will still try to work on it. And he listed down all the possibilities that can goes wrong.
But he still optimism. Nothing can beats doa and prayers. We will put our best effort on it. At least I felt a bit positive on this. After restless days thinking what will be next for me. We set the surgery on the 20th June
Dr Siva has came back with similar answer with Dr Tan, its difficult to do it for me. Can't really see the chances its will not come back. 2. risk as I had chemoradiation last time. 3. I am overweight, so chances of recurrence is high.
Went for some alternative treatment, just to try out something else rather than doc's practice. We went next day (Sunday) and by 10 am already full of people who came around Malaysia. So, many of them, with so many type of deseases. And luckily without the no. I managed to get the slot from him, and experience how it works. He asked me to lie down and press my uterus like nobody business. I was screaming out loud, and then he tried to take out the so called tumour using his hand (invisibily). And said "OK dah takde dah ni, cyst ni. I was a bit confused, since I explained to him it was cancer, not just some cyst. He said " Can check /scan if don't believed.
Straight after the session, we went back to KL and arrange for another MRI scan. And the result? It is still there with extra 1cm growth, and now spread to other lymph nodes. What the.."That's it, we will just go with the surgery", husband said.
The waiting moment before the surgery was scary as ever. I can't sleep, thinking what will be the worst could happen to me. And I just pray and pray and pray things will go smoothly. Worst com to worst, I wil die in month of barakah (Ramadhan month). Hu hu..
The time has come. I am pyhsically well. But emotion all ups and down, and trying hard to calm myself. The whole process took like 6 hours, and woke up at 8pm, with all the dizziness, and uncomfortable feeling. I had this morphine to reduce any pain I had. And next few days still lying on the bed.
The whole process of recovery is according to the plan. Started walking, taking shower, and took liquid stuff. In away, all went well.
Counting days to go home.
1 thing I am glad, is to have my husband,family and friends all around me. Only Allah could repay their goodness and prayers.
Some of the time during hospitalization..
|Still control macho..|
|Schoolmates.. tq sgt korang..muahx|
|Rainreenrarah.. Missed the Makreen n Zahrain pic..dah leka menyembang..|
|Got playroom near by the ward.. Everytime visit Ammi sick nak pegi "ABC"|
|My supermom..accompany me during buka puasa with KLCC view..(mcm la anak dia puasa)..but still wants to be there for me..Love u so much ma..|